As I sat here eating some chips.. I saw my reflection in the pains of glass in the back door and was horrified. I could not believe  what I saw. So I have decided it is sooo time for a change. I cannot make others happy until I can learn how to make myself happy.. and right now I am not happy with myself. I don't like what I see when I look in the mirror.. so usually I avoid looking.. but its time to change. So! For dinner I am making brown rice and some yummy chicken in the ziplock steam fresh bag thing.. which is awesome by the way! I just really need to work on not eating when I am not hungry. I am never going to stay within my calorie limit for the day if I keep doing this. But I am really really trying. I'm starting to see my problems with eating a little bit better though, so I should be able to catch myself. Saturday is going to be a real challenge, because we have our wedding reception .. which mean a wedding cake.. and lots of food..but I am going to try and pick the healthier foods while I am there.. My goal is to be down to 150 by the 13th of July because that is when we are going on vacation to Indy beach.. and I don't want to be embarassed about wearing a swim suit. I want it to be fun.. not a moment where I am so uncomfortable and self-concious that I cry... I'm over that! I want to actually have fun while I am there.. I have 73 days to lose 28 pounds.. does that seem realistic? I hope so!

Well off to eat that yummy smelling dinner!

BTW: I will get caught up on commenting tonight after work! I am sorry to you all!