Things are going pretty well this week. I started school on Monday which I figured the stress would have me eating more.. but its not really. I weighed myself in Tuesday and I am down 8.6lbs! YAY! I am now down 10lbs. Rick forgot to weigh in this week but he is going to do it tomorrow I believe. Our stress level has dropped some and at the same time risen. We are finally past all the major things, besides our family vacation in July... but now Rick is working more and I am working.. and going to school and trying to deal with the kids.. its just a lot.. but we actually feel hardly any stress right now.. I think we've finally learned that we can't do it all ourselves.. we need to depend on one another for that support, which has helped soooo much!

We'll off to do more notes, exercising, and bathing of the children! haha

We want to say we're sorry for not being on or commenting as much as we would like too. Things have been wicked crazy this past week.. but we will hop back on it real soon!

Mucho love!

As I sat here eating some chips.. I saw my reflection in the pains of glass in the back door and was horrified. I could not believe  what I saw. So I have decided it is sooo time for a change. I cannot make others happy until I can learn how to make myself happy.. and right now I am not happy with myself. I don't like what I see when I look in the mirror.. so usually I avoid looking.. but its time to change. So! For dinner I am making brown rice and some yummy chicken in the ziplock steam fresh bag thing.. which is awesome by the way! I just really need to work on not eating when I am not hungry. I am never going to stay within my calorie limit for the day if I keep doing this. But I am really really trying. I'm starting to see my problems with eating a little bit better though, so I should be able to catch myself. Saturday is going to be a real challenge, because we have our wedding reception .. which mean a wedding cake.. and lots of food..but I am going to try and pick the healthier foods while I am there.. My goal is to be down to 150 by the 13th of July because that is when we are going on vacation to Indy beach.. and I don't want to be embarassed about wearing a swim suit. I want it to be fun.. not a moment where I am so uncomfortable and self-concious that I cry... I'm over that! I want to actually have fun while I am there.. I have 73 days to lose 28 pounds.. does that seem realistic? I hope so!

Well off to eat that yummy smelling dinner!

BTW: I will get caught up on commenting tonight after work! I am sorry to you all!

Okie.. for for you guys.. dont read.. but I am now a week and a half late.. and I took a pregnancy test.. but it was negative. Granted I took like 8 of them with my youngest and they were all negative and i was deff. pregnant.. but I'm just not sure.. I am just.. I don't know.. I am just really nervous and wondering.. I keep having this dream where I have a 14 lb baby boy.. its crazy..

Im not sure.. but this is just what I think. Hmmm

It is absolutely beautiful outside today! I cannot believe it. I love it though.. we're going to take Neaveh to the park to feed the ducks wensday  for her birthday. We were going to just go to Chuck E Cheese, but its going to be sunny and like 75 degrees out.. we will be outside! haha I love this weather though.. I wish it was like this all the time. But I also like the snow for Christmas. The girls deffinately love this weather though.. and it wears them out/

well off to play some more haha

Hope everyone can get outside if possible and enjoy the day!

for subway!

haha ok im done now lol

I love a clean house.. I wonder how many calories you burn doing house work.. eeh no matter.. its just nice having the house clean.. for at least a short while lol

It doesn't seem to last long in this house lol

Have a good night!

Well right now eating just really freaking hurts..I have absolutely horrible teeth and I know thats a lot of my problem is the fact that I cannot chew my food properly. I have like 6 or 7 teeth missing and I have one that is just raising hell for me. Most of the tooth is gone, but there is still a tiny bit left along with the root and it just hurts so bad right now. I have had like 7 tooth absests, which I know could kill me if it ever got into my blood stream. But I am just so fustrated because Rick and I don't make enough to get actual insurance so we have insurance through medicade with the state... and they dont even cover for me to get my teeth cleaned.. I have been to the dentist and it'll cost us at least a min. of $4,000 to get it all fixed.. we have two little kids.. we cannot afford that, but I have to do something.. I just don't know what to do.. It just sucks sooo much. Ehh I guess I'm done ranting for now. Sorry to you all.. I just had to get it off my chest.

If any of you have any ideas.. please let me know!

Have a great evening!

I have to say I am rather proud of myself today. Last night around bed time.. I could hear the coco puffs calling my name, but after fighting it for about 2 hours I got a healthy snack and went to bed. I am so proud of myself for fighting such a major temptation. Now I just have to work out when I am in the check out line at the store not getting a 3 muskateers dark chocolate.. which is a bit better.. but still, its not exactly healthy. I am really trying though and thats what matters. Its just really really hard.. but I know I can do it.. I can make it past all this and see the beautiful woman I know I am!

Well, off to clean the house.. the joys of a 18 month old and a 3 year old! haha

Have a great day!

I could not be any happier with the results from BL last night.. I am so happy for all of the winners. I hope they all enjoy their prizes.. but the main prize to enjoy is having all that weight off and being able to live life to the fullest.

Which is what we've done today.. we walked all the way down for some ice cream which was then burnt off by walking to the park and playing at the park for about an hour and then walking up an extreamly steep hill home.. which by the way.. we could really feel the BURN! haha But its progress none the less.. we already know we're having a high calorie meal next wensday because of it being Nevaeh's birthday we're taking her to Chuck E Cheese's for her to play games and have fun. I can't believe my baby is going to be 3 years old.. and little Gabby is right behind.. man oh man.. they sure do grow up fast.

Well anyways, off to do some cleaning.. the house needs it!

Who do you all think will be going home with the grand prize tomorrow? I am hoping one of the girls get it because if course I want to see the first female biggest loser! But if one of the girls can't make it I would love to see Roger get it.. gotta go with the football dude of course! Since we are football nuts.. haha.

Our weight loss and kinda gone in reverse the last week or so.. I don't know why..I am not sure why I sunk back into eating like crap and not exercising.. I don't know .. I've done a lot of soul searching and I have come to realize I am going to keep destroying all my work if I don't figure out what it is that drives me to eat like I do and just yeah.. I don't know.. I'm just kinda rambeling now..

Off to make lunch!

I wanted to say sorry for not being on like I should be.. or being a very good friend. You all have been there this whole time supporting us and driving us.. I could say some excuse.. but there really is no excuse. But what I can say is.. Thank you!

In other news.. I have been doing the biggest loser cardio workout.. and omg.. i loveeee it! Its so much fun.. at first I hurt.. but I stuck with it and I can see a difference already! I am hoping for an actual weightloss this week.. we shall see when Rick gets home from work. I have yet another tooth absest.. so I am limited on what I can eat.. but I am trying to stick with the healthier foods. I have been drinking nothing but water lately.. and I feel great from it! I shall put up how much we have lost. Hopefully they will be good numbers! We have been busting our butts!

Alright my hubby is home.. Update later!

I have a lot of stretch marks from the pregnancy of both my children.. I was wondering if anyone knew of was to make them lighter or get rid of them? I just really hate them..

Other than that.. we've been doing a lot better when it comes to our eating and everything and I have finally stopped hurting so YAY! I will be doing my biggest loser low intensity cardio again tonight! haha Hopefully I won't hurt tomorrow like I have.. although I may because I am working muscles that I have hardly used in years. I must say.. for the first time in a long time I actually feel somewhat pretty.

Now its time to get Nevaeh ready for her preschool screening.. my little girl is growing up

Oh man.. ok.. so Monday night I did my bl low impact cardio exercise.. and I was good.. I was great until the yesterday when I woke up and it hurt soooo bad to walk! So needless to say I didn't exercise last night . I do still hurt today, but despite that I am going to exercise again tonight.. I'm just going to focus more on my upper body and my abs. Which still does need a lot of work.. so its all good. I tired to make a tofu meal Monday night.. but we found out.. we're not big tofu fans. lol.. My 3 year old seemed to like it pretty well, shes not a big one on eating meat though.. my 18 month old though.. oh man. she loves her meat.. just like her daddy! haha. Ricks still doing really good.. he gained like 3 lbs this week..and I gained 2 lbs.. sadly.. but we've been eating pretty well and getting back into the swing of things again so hopefully we'll have good numbers on Tuesday. Usually I have a habit of sneeking a peek at my weight durning the week.. but I am doing good this week.. no sneak peeks.. I am hoping to have a surprise good number on Tuesday.

As for the contest... Rick and I both knew we didn't have much of a chance of winning.. we mainly did this so we would have other people to talk to and get encouragement from others..its just nice to make new friends and have people to talk to that are going through the same as we are. As for the winners.. congratulations.. I know we won't find out who you are for a bit.. but congrats! And congratulations to all the rest of you.. although you may not have won the contest.. you've gotten something so much better!

Alright.. of to attempt to do laundry and clean my kids rooms.. haha  Have a wonderful day!

Peace, Love, & Happyness

I am just a little fustrated with myself today. I had yet another gain today.. this is so grrr.. I just don't seem to have it.. maybe I need to be pushed a little more or something? I don't know.. I know I need to start exercising again.. so first thing in the morning I am going to bust my butt. Hopefully I can make a big enough dent by next Tuesday when we weigh in. I am making a new start. Hopefully I can lost the weight I want to by our wedding reception on May 3rd.  I am however very proud of Rick for being able to keep the weight off.. he really does look amazing. I will take some pictures of him tomorrow and post them.. its amazing!

Well.. off to get the kiddies in bed and the house cleaned.

Peace, Love, & Happyness

Well folks.. after a long while of not being able to post.. we are finally moved! We even have almost everything unpacked and put where we want it. I am soooo happy with this new house.. and its going to be sooooooo much easier to exercise.. we have a lot more room to do it.  On the food eating aspect for us lately... well .. we've been eating like crap.. and Im putting that nicely. But neither one of us has really gained weight or lost.. I think all the work from moving with the bad eating kinda evened things out.. but we can't help but think of how much weight we could have lost if we would have eaten right. But its ok. We'll make it to our goals yet.

I just figured I'd give a quick update.. I'll post later on with our weights for the week!


Peace, Love, & Happyness

Ok so I really need to learn how to handle stress better.. I have been really stressed out this week with everything going on (mainly moving) and so what do I do.. I turn to food. Ugh. I am so disgusted with myself. Granted I still lost 2 pounds this week, but I know I could have done better if I hadn't of eaten so freaking much. I am just horrified with myself.. I cannot wait for all this to get done so I can get back to exercising and everything really. I just need to get back to bust my butt and losing the weight. I want to be down to at least 150 by May 3. Thats we Rick and I are having our wedding reception and our honeymoon. I want to actually feel sexy on our honeymoon. Ricks a little bummed because he gained 2 pounds this week.. so our weights pretty much cancelled each other out this week. Things are just beyond crazy right now and it seems we are both turning to food to try and help ease some of the stress and pressure we've been feeling.. man on man. I finally did get more gum though.. which really does help both of us a lot. so thats a great idea.

Well off to put the kiddies in bed and do some more little packing.

Peace, Love, & Happyness

Well I got an e-mail asking all members of the sangamon county chapter of the relay for life to walk in the st. pactricks day parade on saturday. Im talking with rick about it. I would really like to do it.. but seeing how we're moving on friday night.. I dont know. I just know it'll be great exercise and the girls would love it! I'm hoping we can.. itll be nice to do it. But we only have 4 more days until we move! Thank goodness. that will be so much stress off of the both of us and then we can start getting our lives back to normal. The parade would be so much fun though! I'm going to talk to Rick about it more when he wakes up from his nap. We'll see..

well off to spend time with the kiddies.

Peace, Love & Happiness

First of all only one more week and all this moving crap will be done and over with! Thank God! That will be a ton lot less stress on Rick and I both. I am greatly looking forward to just being able to chill out in our new house.I will deffinatly be posting pictures of the new place once we get moved!

In other news, I kinda took a sneek peek at my weight this morning and I'm back down to 168.. so yay for that.. Im hoping I can lose 3 more pounds by Tuesday when we weigh in, that will be major.. at least I am only 8 pounds away from my first goal of getting to 160.. Getting below that will be a major thing for me. I havn't been below 160 since before I had my first daughter-  Nevaeh. I am really excited.. and I have noticed that the girls are even acting a lot better and seem to have more energy and life in them since we've been eating better. I am very proud of Ricky and I both.. and I'm not proud of myself for much.. but this is one thing that I am very proud of because its for my beautiful little girls.

Alrighty... off to pack some more and work on the mounds of laundry from my lovely Peanut deciding to change clothes every 10 mins like a teenager haha.


Peace, Love, & Happiness

Well, our plans today have kinda been switched around. Rick ended up having to go into work. So our plans of packing more and stuff kinda got put on hold.. we him helping to pack and everything did! haha I have been busting my butt on packing.. 9 days until we move! YAY!So I am taking a short break and watching recorded episodes of BL and updating a bit. I plan on  trying that new BL carido  max  workout tonight,  its just the trial sample thing.. but Its one full work out to try. so I thought I would. if I like it I'll deff. have to go out and buy both of the workouts! I wasn't happy with my weigh in yesterday so I am trying to correct that this week. I am hoping to be around 165 when I weigh in on tuesday.. I am hoping to be anyways! Even if I'm not I am hoping to be around that... but I also know I have to put in the work to get to that point.. and so I am busting my butt off.. hopefully.. actually getting it off haha. Rick felt so bad about having to go into work, but he knows we need the money right now.. I just feel bad for him because he was so enjoying his day off. But I will surprise him when he gets home tonight and have the house cleaned and things packed and a nice hot low cal. dinner on the table for him. 

Any words of encouragement you have for him would be awesome.. I know hes feeling a bit stressed and fustrated.