Okie.. for for you guys.. dont read.. but I am now a week and a half late.. and I took a pregnancy test.. but it was negative. Granted I took like 8 of them with my youngest and they were all negative and i was deff. pregnant.. but I'm just not sure.. I am just.. I don't know.. I am just really nervous and wondering.. I keep having this dream where I have a 14 lb baby boy.. its crazy..

Im not sure.. but this is just what I think. Hmmm

It is absolutely beautiful outside today! I cannot believe it. I love it though.. we're going to take Neaveh to the park to feed the ducks wensday  for her birthday. We were going to just go to Chuck E Cheese, but its going to be sunny and like 75 degrees out.. we will be outside! haha I love this weather though.. I wish it was like this all the time. But I also like the snow for Christmas. The girls deffinately love this weather though.. and it wears them out/

well off to play some more haha

Hope everyone can get outside if possible and enjoy the day!

for subway!

haha ok im done now lol

I love a clean house.. I wonder how many calories you burn doing house work.. eeh no matter.. its just nice having the house clean.. for at least a short while lol

It doesn't seem to last long in this house lol

Have a good night!

Well right now eating just really freaking hurts..I have absolutely horrible teeth and I know thats a lot of my problem is the fact that I cannot chew my food properly. I have like 6 or 7 teeth missing and I have one that is just raising hell for me. Most of the tooth is gone, but there is still a tiny bit left along with the root and it just hurts so bad right now. I have had like 7 tooth absests, which I know could kill me if it ever got into my blood stream. But I am just so fustrated because Rick and I don't make enough to get actual insurance so we have insurance through medicade with the state... and they dont even cover for me to get my teeth cleaned.. I have been to the dentist and it'll cost us at least a min. of $4,000 to get it all fixed.. we have two little kids.. we cannot afford that, but I have to do something.. I just don't know what to do.. It just sucks sooo much. Ehh I guess I'm done ranting for now. Sorry to you all.. I just had to get it off my chest.

If any of you have any ideas.. please let me know!

Have a great evening!

I have to say I am rather proud of myself today. Last night around bed time.. I could hear the coco puffs calling my name, but after fighting it for about 2 hours I got a healthy snack and went to bed. I am so proud of myself for fighting such a major temptation. Now I just have to work out when I am in the check out line at the store not getting a 3 muskateers dark chocolate.. which is a bit better.. but still, its not exactly healthy. I am really trying though and thats what matters. Its just really really hard.. but I know I can do it.. I can make it past all this and see the beautiful woman I know I am!

Well, off to clean the house.. the joys of a 18 month old and a 3 year old! haha

Have a great day!

I could not be any happier with the results from BL last night.. I am so happy for all of the winners. I hope they all enjoy their prizes.. but the main prize to enjoy is having all that weight off and being able to live life to the fullest.

Which is what we've done today.. we walked all the way down for some ice cream which was then burnt off by walking to the park and playing at the park for about an hour and then walking up an extreamly steep hill home.. which by the way.. we could really feel the BURN! haha But its progress none the less.. we already know we're having a high calorie meal next wensday because of it being Nevaeh's birthday we're taking her to Chuck E Cheese's for her to play games and have fun. I can't believe my baby is going to be 3 years old.. and little Gabby is right behind.. man oh man.. they sure do grow up fast.

Well anyways, off to do some cleaning.. the house needs it!

Who do you all think will be going home with the grand prize tomorrow? I am hoping one of the girls get it because if course I want to see the first female biggest loser! But if one of the girls can't make it I would love to see Roger get it.. gotta go with the football dude of course! Since we are football nuts.. haha.

Our weight loss and kinda gone in reverse the last week or so.. I don't know why..I am not sure why I sunk back into eating like crap and not exercising.. I don't know .. I've done a lot of soul searching and I have come to realize I am going to keep destroying all my work if I don't figure out what it is that drives me to eat like I do and just yeah.. I don't know.. I'm just kinda rambeling now..

Off to make lunch!

I wanted to say sorry for not being on like I should be.. or being a very good friend. You all have been there this whole time supporting us and driving us.. I could say some excuse.. but there really is no excuse. But what I can say is.. Thank you!

In other news.. I have been doing the biggest loser cardio workout.. and omg.. i loveeee it! Its so much fun.. at first I hurt.. but I stuck with it and I can see a difference already! I am hoping for an actual weightloss this week.. we shall see when Rick gets home from work. I have yet another tooth absest.. so I am limited on what I can eat.. but I am trying to stick with the healthier foods. I have been drinking nothing but water lately.. and I feel great from it! I shall put up how much we have lost. Hopefully they will be good numbers! We have been busting our butts!

Alright my hubby is home.. Update later!

I have a lot of stretch marks from the pregnancy of both my children.. I was wondering if anyone knew of was to make them lighter or get rid of them? I just really hate them..

Other than that.. we've been doing a lot better when it comes to our eating and everything and I have finally stopped hurting so YAY! I will be doing my biggest loser low intensity cardio again tonight! haha Hopefully I won't hurt tomorrow like I have.. although I may because I am working muscles that I have hardly used in years. I must say.. for the first time in a long time I actually feel somewhat pretty.

Now its time to get Nevaeh ready for her preschool screening.. my little girl is growing up

Oh man.. ok.. so Monday night I did my bl low impact cardio exercise.. and I was good.. I was great until the yesterday when I woke up and it hurt soooo bad to walk! So needless to say I didn't exercise last night . I do still hurt today, but despite that I am going to exercise again tonight.. I'm just going to focus more on my upper body and my abs. Which still does need a lot of work.. so its all good. I tired to make a tofu meal Monday night.. but we found out.. we're not big tofu fans. lol.. My 3 year old seemed to like it pretty well, shes not a big one on eating meat though.. my 18 month old though.. oh man. she loves her meat.. just like her daddy! haha. Ricks still doing really good.. he gained like 3 lbs this week..and I gained 2 lbs.. sadly.. but we've been eating pretty well and getting back into the swing of things again so hopefully we'll have good numbers on Tuesday. Usually I have a habit of sneeking a peek at my weight durning the week.. but I am doing good this week.. no sneak peeks.. I am hoping to have a surprise good number on Tuesday.

As for the contest... Rick and I both knew we didn't have much of a chance of winning.. we mainly did this so we would have other people to talk to and get encouragement from others..its just nice to make new friends and have people to talk to that are going through the same as we are. As for the winners.. congratulations.. I know we won't find out who you are for a bit.. but congrats! And congratulations to all the rest of you.. although you may not have won the contest.. you've gotten something so much better!

Alright.. of to attempt to do laundry and clean my kids rooms.. haha  Have a wonderful day!

Peace, Love, & Happyness