I am just a little fustrated with myself today. I had yet another gain today.. this is so grrr.. I just don't seem to have it.. maybe I need to be pushed a little more or something? I don't know.. I know I need to start exercising again.. so first thing in the morning I am going to bust my butt. Hopefully I can make a big enough dent by next Tuesday when we weigh in. I am making a new start. Hopefully I can lost the weight I want to by our wedding reception on May 3rd.  I am however very proud of Rick for being able to keep the weight off.. he really does look amazing. I will take some pictures of him tomorrow and post them.. its amazing!

Well.. off to get the kiddies in bed and the house cleaned.

Peace, Love, & Happyness

Well folks.. after a long while of not being able to post.. we are finally moved! We even have almost everything unpacked and put where we want it. I am soooo happy with this new house.. and its going to be sooooooo much easier to exercise.. we have a lot more room to do it.  On the food eating aspect for us lately... well .. we've been eating like crap.. and Im putting that nicely. But neither one of us has really gained weight or lost.. I think all the work from moving with the bad eating kinda evened things out.. but we can't help but think of how much weight we could have lost if we would have eaten right. But its ok. We'll make it to our goals yet.

I just figured I'd give a quick update.. I'll post later on with our weights for the week!


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Ok so I really need to learn how to handle stress better.. I have been really stressed out this week with everything going on (mainly moving) and so what do I do.. I turn to food. Ugh. I am so disgusted with myself. Granted I still lost 2 pounds this week, but I know I could have done better if I hadn't of eaten so freaking much. I am just horrified with myself.. I cannot wait for all this to get done so I can get back to exercising and everything really. I just need to get back to bust my butt and losing the weight. I want to be down to at least 150 by May 3. Thats we Rick and I are having our wedding reception and our honeymoon. I want to actually feel sexy on our honeymoon. Ricks a little bummed because he gained 2 pounds this week.. so our weights pretty much cancelled each other out this week. Things are just beyond crazy right now and it seems we are both turning to food to try and help ease some of the stress and pressure we've been feeling.. man on man. I finally did get more gum though.. which really does help both of us a lot. so thats a great idea.

Well off to put the kiddies in bed and do some more little packing.

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Well I got an e-mail asking all members of the sangamon county chapter of the relay for life to walk in the st. pactricks day parade on saturday. Im talking with rick about it. I would really like to do it.. but seeing how we're moving on friday night.. I dont know. I just know it'll be great exercise and the girls would love it! I'm hoping we can.. itll be nice to do it. But we only have 4 more days until we move! Thank goodness. that will be so much stress off of the both of us and then we can start getting our lives back to normal. The parade would be so much fun though! I'm going to talk to Rick about it more when he wakes up from his nap. We'll see..

well off to spend time with the kiddies.

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First of all only one more week and all this moving crap will be done and over with! Thank God! That will be a ton lot less stress on Rick and I both. I am greatly looking forward to just being able to chill out in our new house.I will deffinatly be posting pictures of the new place once we get moved!

In other news, I kinda took a sneek peek at my weight this morning and I'm back down to 168.. so yay for that.. Im hoping I can lose 3 more pounds by Tuesday when we weigh in, that will be major.. at least I am only 8 pounds away from my first goal of getting to 160.. Getting below that will be a major thing for me. I havn't been below 160 since before I had my first daughter-  Nevaeh. I am really excited.. and I have noticed that the girls are even acting a lot better and seem to have more energy and life in them since we've been eating better. I am very proud of Ricky and I both.. and I'm not proud of myself for much.. but this is one thing that I am very proud of because its for my beautiful little girls.

Alrighty... off to pack some more and work on the mounds of laundry from my lovely Peanut deciding to change clothes every 10 mins like a teenager haha.


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Well, our plans today have kinda been switched around. Rick ended up having to go into work. So our plans of packing more and stuff kinda got put on hold.. we him helping to pack and everything did! haha I have been busting my butt on packing.. 9 days until we move! YAY!So I am taking a short break and watching recorded episodes of BL and updating a bit. I plan on  trying that new BL carido  max  workout tonight,  its just the trial sample thing.. but Its one full work out to try. so I thought I would. if I like it I'll deff. have to go out and buy both of the workouts! I wasn't happy with my weigh in yesterday so I am trying to correct that this week. I am hoping to be around 165 when I weigh in on tuesday.. I am hoping to be anyways! Even if I'm not I am hoping to be around that... but I also know I have to put in the work to get to that point.. and so I am busting my butt off.. hopefully.. actually getting it off haha. Rick felt so bad about having to go into work, but he knows we need the money right now.. I just feel bad for him because he was so enjoying his day off. But I will surprise him when he gets home tonight and have the house cleaned and things packed and a nice hot low cal. dinner on the table for him. 

Any words of encouragement you have for him would be awesome.. I know hes feeling a bit stressed and fustrated.

We watched another great episode of BL and had some yummy yummy Boco burgers. Ricks done great with eating right and losing weight and keeping active.. me on the other hand.. I must say I suck and I feel so extreamly discouraged. I know I can do better.. I've been doing better with staying active and all.. but thats about it. I just keep eating.. even when I'm not hungry or feel sick to my stomach.. I don't understand it at all...I don't get how I can possibly eat so much. its all just so freaking fustrating.. I want to do nothing more than to pull my hair out and cry.. and I know I tend to eat when I'm stressed and with moving and everything else coming up here fast I am a little stressed, but I thought I was doing alright..

I just need some encouragement I guess... I just need to know that I can do this.. because right now it feels like a hopeless cause...

Yeah well... I hate being a woman sometimes.. It's that time of the month so I have been having even more problems staying away from salty foods and oh my gosh chocolate ... its killing me. I ate so much salty food today.. but right now I am trying to drink a bunch of water and wash some of it out of my system. Then the stress isn't helping any.. but I am going to eat better tomorrow.. I have to admit I think I have a big influence on Rick. I don't try to, but I gab something bad to eat or drink and then he does.. I feel responsible for what he eats and stuff. I know he has full control over what he eats and does.. but I cant help but feel guilty. We did however go on a nice long walk today.. it was nice to have a nice day and take the girls out for some fresh air. They LOVED it. I can't wait for spring and summer.. I will be outside all the time! On the up side only 12  more days until we get to move.. thank goodness.. I am so sick and tired of all the boxes and just it all.. I want my new place so bad right now. But I can make it.. less than 2 weeks now and with as much as we have left to do.. the time will fly right by!

Well.. off to finish my water and clean up and go to bed.. I am sure the kids will be up early

Everyone have a nice night and a wonderful day tomorrow!

We finally got a biggest loser scale and we have to say for it being a scale.. we LOVE it! Its soooo nice. Cassie also got some new exercise clothes because her old ones were too big and as it turns out shes allergic to polyster.. she breaks out in a horrible rash everywhere.. so now its just 100% cotton or there abouts for her. We really havn't had much time to exercise lately... or even the room with all the boxes to move.. luckly in 12 days it will all be done and over with. We'll have a nice big area to do everything in at the new house.. so we're pretty stoked about that. We'll just be happy when all the moving is over! We're getting geared up and excited about the relay for life walk in June.. but we really do need help with donations! Please.. its for a great cause!

heres both mine and cassie's link to be able to donate: http://main.acsevents.org/goto/foracause

and now.. on to packing more boxes!